In Christ: Article 1 - New Testament Greek: ἐν Χριστῷ translated as ‘In Christ’ – what does ‘in Christ’ mean?

In April 2016, you may remember, Archbishop Justin Welby, revealed that he had recently discovered that his biological father was not Gavin Welby, his mother’s husband.

In his press statement, he explained that, although the news came as a great surprise, ‘I know that I find who I am in Jesus Christ, not in genetics, and my identity in him never changes.’

As I listened to his steady voice and calm manner as he read out his statement, I wondered what those listening made of the phrases ‘who I am in Jesus Christ’ and ‘my identity in him.’ Christian poetic jargon? Ecclesiastical psychobabble? An awkward way of simply saying ‘as a Christian’?

‘I know that I find who I am in Jesus Christ, not in genetics, and my identity in him never changes.’

And, maybe, for those whose church-attending ears are more attuned to New Testament phraseology, ‘in Christ’ is a familiar phrase often quoted by St Paul and inferred by Jesus. ‘In Christ’ or ‘in Jesus Christ’ is mentioned over 160 times in the New Testament. But, even among churchgoers, is this simply a phrase devoid of any greater meaning than ‘a Christian believer?’

Two hymns ‘In Christ Alone’ (written in 2001) and Charles Wesley’s ‘And Can It Be?’ (1738) repeat the phrase and are popular still in churches today.

But what does the two-word phrase ‘in Christ’ mean? What picture does it paint?’

Jesus also used very similar phraseology:

‘Abide in me and I in you’ John 15v4; ‘The Spirit dwells with you, and will be in you’ John 14 v 17, ‘As You, Father, are in me, and I in you…may they be one just as we are one: I in them and You in me’ John 17 v 22,23

Paul also talks of the Israelites being ‘baptised into Moses’ (1 Cor 10v2) and of Christian believers being ‘baptised into Christ Jesus’ (Rom 6v3) and believers former state of being ‘in Adam’ (1 Cor 15v21)

To explore the phrase ‘in Christ’ I am using three pictures (i) the container (ii) the inheritor (iii) blotting paper.

Picture 1 The Container

Tools in a box, passengers on a bus, members of a team

The tools are contained in the toolbox and go where the box goes, as do the passengers and the members of the team. So, this picture ‘works’ in the sense that the Israelites, having chosen to follow Moses into the desert, or believers having chosen to follow Christ go where Moses in the Old Testament or Christ leads. Or, if a more static picture is envisaged believers in Christ are positioned where He is, spiritually speaking, contained ‘in Him’.

This picture works quite well for ‘in Christ’ but not so well for ‘Christ in you’. If Jesus is Lord then we follow, He doesn’t follow us, so ‘Christ in you’ could suggest He goes where you lead.

More doctrinally, this phrase is impossible to marry with ‘substitutionary’ atonement.

Jesus died on the cross for us, in our place. The sinless died for sinners. It was a sacrifice that cost everything, the price was paid in His blood to reconcile us to God. God’s wrath was poured out on Christ, not us. He was a substitute. A simple illustration that is often used is of a law court. The guilty person in the dock is awaiting the judge and the sentence. The sentence is the death penalty. All looks lost until we find the judge acquitting the guilty, someone else having died in their place.

Paul summarises this in Romans 5v8,9

‘God demonstrates His own love for us – while were sinners Christ died for us…and acquitted (or justified) us by His blood’

The problem with ‘substitutionary’ atonement isn’t that it is untrue. It is true. We can say that Chrost’s death and his blood atoned for our sins. Wonderfully true. Once you ‘see it’, that Christ took all our sins and died in our place, and can say ‘Christ died for me’, you know you are forgiven and have been reconciled to God. A relationship of love has begun.

The problem isn’t that it isn’t true, the problem is that it is incomplete.

The guilty defendant is released. He has no criminal record. It’s all been wiped, a clean slate. But the defendant’s nature has not changed. We are left with, as many say, ‘we are sinners saved by grace’ but how can Christ have sinners contained ‘in Hm’ and how can sinners have ‘Christ’ living in them? It doesn’t fit, it doesn’t marry.

Many square the circle by saying ‘Christ in me, the hope of glory’ (Col 1v27) gives me faith that I can be changed, transformed, sanctified, and become more like Christ. Changed from the inside-out. Or even, to quote John the Baptist, ‘I must decrease, that He may increase’.

This is the logical conclusion of the gospel being viewed through substitutionary atonement alone.

The sinner may be ‘covered over with a robe of righteousness’ (Is 61v10) so that when God looks at me, He doesn’t see me but Christ’s righteousness covering me, but the sinner is still a sinner, he or she has not had their essential sinful nature changed.

The problem with ‘substitutionary’ atonement isn’t that it is untrue. It is. But it is incomplete. It is half the story.

Lastly, the limitation of this picture, of tools in a box, is either that there is ‘Christ in me’ a small Christ, contained in a large me, or ‘in Christ’ a small me contained in a large Christ. The tool is not organically joined to the toolbox or the passengers on the bus to the bus. And yet the New Testament speaks of us ‘abiding in Christ’ or being ‘one with Christ’. This picture, therefore is of limited usefulness, it helps us in terms of destiny but not relationship.

Conclusion: Picture 1 The Container is an inadequate interpretation of being ‘in Christ’ or ‘Christ in me’ and cannot be married to substitutionary atonement’ because substitutionary atonement is an incomplete gospel.

Picture 2 The Inheritor

This, I would argue is far closer to what Jesus, Paul and other NT writers meant by the phrase ‘in Christ’ or ‘Christ in you’.

If we were ‘in Adam’, we inherit Adam’s sinful nature, we are ‘sinners’ by nature and so we sin, if the Israelites are ‘in Moses’ they inherit everything that was given by God to Moses i.e. the Law, and the spiritual food and drink referred to in 1 Cor 10. Similarly, if believers are now ‘in Christ’ they stand to inherit everything in Christ: His holiness, His righteousness, His eternal life, His limitless power over sin, His riches.

This inheritance, it can be argued, is part and parcel of the New Covenant inaugurated by Jesus’ death on the cross and His blood. Another translation for ‘covenant’ is ‘testament’ as in a person’s Last Will and Testament.

After the last supper with his disciples, Jesus raised a cup and said: ‘this cup is the New Covenant in My blood, shed for you’ Luke 22v20.

To quote the last verse of Charles Wesley’s great hymn, And Can It Be:

No condemnation now I dread
Jesus, and all in Him is mine!
Alive in Him, my living Head,
And clothed in righteousness divine,
Bold I approach the eternal throne

Conclusion: Picture 2 is an improvement on Picture 1 but ignores the underlying issue – the incomplete nature of the gospel viewed through substitutionary atonement which fails to explain how we can ‘move house’ from Adam to Christ.

Picture 3 Blotting Paper

Before we look at the blotting paper picture it is important to see how scripture solves the conundrum of moving from Adam to Christ.

This can be done in two steps. Firstly to take a look at the details of the New Covenant and find out what is promised as our inheritance once we’re in Christ. And, secondly, to complete the gospel, to go further in our appreciation of what God achieved for us through Christ’s death on the cross.

(i) The New Covenant

The prophets Isaiah, Jeremiah, and Ezekiel all prophesied that God would bring in a New Covenant (New Testament) to replace the Old Covenant (Old Testament). The old covenant formed by God initially with Abraham (see Genesis 12 and 15) and built on through Moses needed to be replaced:

‘See, the day is coming when I will make a new covenant with the house of Judah and the house of Judah not like the covenant…which they broke even though I was like a husband to them…this is the covenant I will make…I will put My law in their minds and write it on their hearts…’ Jeremiah 31 v 31-34 / Hebrews 8 v 7-12

‘I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you. I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh and I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My ways’ Ezekiel 36 v 26-27 / Ezekiel 11v19

When Jesus took the cup and announced that the New Covenant would be inaugurated through the shedding of His blood not many hours after the Last Supper, He was referring to these prophetic announcements made hundreds of years before the events of that Passover meal with His disciples.

No longer were the people of God, Israel, bound to God through their attempt to keep the Law of Moses as inscribed on tablets of stone. Now God will come as a heart surgeon:

1. Remove our stony hearts
2. Replace our hearts with a new fleshy heart
3. Give us a new spirit
4. Come and live in us by His Spirit

And this was all to be achieved through Christ on the cross that Jesus knew lay ahead of Him not many hours after raising the cup after supper and saying: ‘this is the new covenant in My blood’.

(ii) Substitutionary and Inclusive

We have seen how Christ died for us, in our place, and taking the punishment we deserved on the cross. The debt paid at the cost of His own life, through His blood. This is substitutionary atonement.

But the New Testament goes further than this in its disclosure of what God achieved for us through the cross.

‘Do you not know that as many of us as were baptised into Christ Jesus were baptised into his death…knowing this that our old man was crucified with Him…now if we died with Christ we shall, also live with Him…’ Romans 6 v 3-8

‘I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. The life I know live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who love men and gave His life for me’ Gal 2v20

‘You died and your life is hidden with Christ in God…Christ is your life’ Col 3 v 2,3

Paul makes it abundantly clear that on the cross, it wasn’t just our sins that were laid on Jesus, but us. Not just sins but sinners.

Jesus took that old Adamic you and I to the cross and nailed it there. Dead. Crucified. God achieved the death of that old Adamic nature, the old Adam, through the death of His Son.

And that through the resurrection we have been raised ‘in Him’, ‘in Christ’ with a new nature. In terms of the promised new covenant, the old Adamic stony heart is removed, replaced with a new Christ-fleshy heart, a new human spirit AND His Spirit to come and dwell in us to cause us to walk in His ways.

‘If anyone thirsts let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the scripture has said, out of his heart shall flow rivers of living water’. This he said concerning the Spirit whom those believing would receive, for the Holy Spirit had not yet been given’ John 7v37-39

As Paul put it elsewhere: ‘Therefore, if any man is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has gone, the new has come’ 2 Cor 5v17

And it is ‘of Him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God and righteousness and sanctification and redemption’ 1 Cor 1v30

So, Galatians 2v20 shows us that the death of Christ on the cross was not only ‘substitutionary’ – ‘He gave His life for me’ but ‘inclusive’ ‘I have been crucified with Christ’ - it includes you and me, we died on the cross with Christ.

Now we can begin to understand what the phrase ‘in Christ’ or ‘Christ in me’ meant to Paul and similar phrases meant to Jesus looking ahead to His relationship with us post-cross and resurrection.

What is the relationship between the new creation-I, the ‘in Christ-I-Christ-in me’ new creation and Christ Himself - and therefore with the Father and the Spirit? And what about how this affects my daily experience of life, my struggles with sin, temptation, the world and the devil – the forces arrayed against us? How does this affect my view of discipleship or spiritual growth?

Often what we need to do is remind ourselves of the terms of the new covenant. We are beneficiaries of the covenant or testament.

Under the old covenant, the Israelites and Gentiles beyond the covenants in their Adamic nature could not keep the commandments written on stone. Now, in the new covenant, His Spirit writes those laws on our new hearts. ‘True Christianity’ is a Spirit-spirit operation. It is more like an eruption than a life of self-regulation. The life of the Spirit erupts from within.

Jesus put it like this:

‘If anyone thirsts let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the scripture has said, out of his heart shall flow rivers of living water’. This he said concerning the Spirit whom those believing would receive, for the Holy Spirit had not yet been given’ John 7v37-39

The heart of the matter is a communion, between the Holy Spirit and our new spirit.

‘The Spirit bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God’ Romans 8 v 16

‘If anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ he is not His’ Romans 8 v 9

‘The love of God is poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit given to us’ Romans 5 v 14

‘As many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are the sons of God’ Romans 8 v 1

In many passages, especially in the Acts of the Apostles, we see how believers are spoken to, guided, warned, and empowered by the Spirit.

One example:

‘As they ministered to the Lord and fasted the Holy Spirit said, ‘Set apart Barnabus and Saul to Me for the work to which I have called them’’ Acts 13v2

This is solid reality. This is the new covenant in operation. This is the relationship, the communion, of God with His new creations in Christ Jesus.

Blotting Paper?

Put blotting paper on ink or pour ink on blotting paper and the result is the same, the ink is absorbed by the paper and if you magnify the fibres of the botting paper you’ll see the ink has soaked into the fibres themselves. It is not possible to say where one starts and the other begins. They are in a state of intimate union.

But this union can only be achieved if the paper is plunged into the ink. This is the meaning of ‘baptism’ or ‘bapteizo’ in Greek. To plunge under. Clothes are dyed by plunging them under the liquid dye.

In the New Testament there are three main baptisms. None mention water. They are baptisms into a person.

Firstly, God plunges us into Christ and, as we have seen therefore into Christ’s death, then to be raised in Christ as a new creation. But first the crucifixion of the old man, and the burial.

‘Do you not know that as many of us as were baptised into Christ Jesus were baptised into his death…knowing this that our old man was crucified with Him…now if we died with Christ we shall, also live with Him…’ Romans 6 v 3-8

Those of us who are more church-familiar have a problem. It’s the ticking clock you cannot hear, consigned to the background. It is the same with the familiarity of biblical vocabulary. We have been plunged into Christ. This is a radical statement.

We have been plunged into Christ. This is a radical statement.

Firstly ‘Christ’ means ‘Messiah’ which in turn means ‘the anointed one’ so rewriting this we find that we – mostly Gentile believers – have been plunged into the Messiah, the one promised to the Jews. We often refer to Jesus as the Jewish Messiah, he was born a Jew. But Isaiah and other prophets were constantly reminding the Jews of their ultimate purpose ‘I, the Lord, have called You in righteousness…and as a light to the Gentiles’ Is 42v6.

There is no mention of water in this passage.

Secondly, Jesus baptises us in the Spirit. Plunges us into the Holy Spirit.

John the Baptist prophesied: ‘I baptise you with water, but One mightier than I is coming…He will baptise you with the Holy Spirit’ Luke 3v16

Jesus referred to this after the resurrection when speaking to the disciples:

‘John truly baptised with water, but you shall be baptised with the Holy Spirit not many days from now’ Acts 1 v 5

This was fulfilled 10 days later, on the Day of Pentecost:

‘When the day of Pentecost had fully come…they were all filled with the Holy Spirit…’ Acts 2v 1-4

The New Covenant had dawned but notice that Jesus plunged them into the Holy Spirit, there is no mention of water in this passage.

Lastly, thirdly, the Holy Spirit baptises us into the body of Christ:

‘By one Spirit we were all baptised into one body…and been made to drink one Spirit…the body of Christ…’ 1 Cor 12v 12-27

Again, there is no mention of water.

The picture is now complete. There is a union between God and the believer. It turns out that we are ‘containers’ of Christ in us. But the ‘us’ has been redefined through the death and resurrection of Christ. The new ‘Christ-in-me’ creation is fused; the new spirit with the Holy Spirit. As new creations in Christ, we inherit all that God has done in and through Christ’s death, resurrection, ascension, and glorification. And, lastly, we are not only fused as one with Christ but with all other believers in what the New Testament calls the body of Christ: ‘now you are the body of Christ and members individually’ 1 Cor 12 v 27. That union isn’t like two magnets joined together, distinct yet attracted. Whilst Christ has indeed ascended to glory, and we are on the earth the union is via the spirit-Spirit communion. A little like a portal, joining heaven and earth.

Now it makes sense to pray ‘thy will be done on Earth as it is in heaven’ as the Spirit in communion with our spirits can reveal His will which can then be accomplished on the Earth…through us.

Two points to close. Water baptism. And spiritual growth or discipleship.

Water baptism is a necessary symbolic act. Dead bodies need to be buried. When Peter stood up to preach on the day of Pentecost, the crowd that listened while others scoffed (nothing new there!) asked:

‘What shall we do?’ Then Peter said, ‘Repent and let every one of you be baptised in the name of Jesus Christ…and you will receive the gift of the Spirit’…then those who gladly received his word were baptised…about three thousand’ Acts 2 v 37-41

Water baptism symbolises the above three baptisms.

Discipleship and spiritual growth in Christ is not a smooth, continually upward, glorious experience of unending joy and victory for many if not all believers.

As new creations with the Holy Spirit in communion with our new spirits and new hearts the potential is there for us to exhibit the new life, the life of Christ, in this world, in the context of our families, friends, work colleagues, many others we meet, and in the context of all the ways we have lived life before the invasion of Christ. In the West, for example, there is a greater emphasis on rational thought and establishing truth via empirical evidence than in the more spiritual East. We have to unlearn the ways of our culture and learn the new ways of the kingdom of God. During Jesus’s childhood, adolescence, and as a young man he ‘grew in wisdom and stature and in favour with God and men’ Luke 2v52 We, now, as sons of the Father in Christ, are being called to grow in wisdom in exactly the same way. To learn to be led by the Holy Spirit not the flesh – flesh meaning our natural abilities such as our thinking, our understanding, or our emotions, or our wills, or bodily appetites. None of these things are wrong, evil, or sinful in themselves, but we have to learn who’s boss, the Holy Spirit or our flesh.

In a car, we can ignore the SatNav, but as new creations in Christ, we have to learn to hear our in-built SatNav, the voice of the Spirit, and obey His directions.

When I was 6, a friend let me borrow his bike. I didn’t have a bike and couldn’t ride one. But I was determined to learn. So, as dusk was falling, I rode his bike around and around his back garden, falling off, getting back on, falling off getting back on. By the time I had conquered it and could ride his bike, I was covered in grass stains, my legs were hurting and my wrists bruised from falling off, but I learnt.

God will never give up teaching us to live just like Jesus

God will never give up teaching us to live just like Jesus so that we, like Him, only do what we see the Father doing or speak what we hear. We may suffer all kinds of setbacks, but He is faithful. It’s all there in the New Covenant:

‘I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh and I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My ways’

End.

Next Article: ‘Christ in us’ or ‘Christ as us’?

The Emptying

At number 4, grass grew from June to August
The solid oak front door obscuring
Bills unpaid, takeaway vouchers,
And a postcard from the Sun.
The body was well-dressed and mostly absent
A monocle, a mould-infested bow tie
Dark brown shoe polish, can open,
Brush gripped tight in his bent
Rigor mortis fist, bones only.
He’d choked, it would seem

Long-distant family members
Attracted by duty and pecuniary matters
Like flies to the body
Sifted, binned, sold, and removed
Nearly a century of accumulated
Memories needed no more.
Every object passed through
Their executor-digestive system
And eliminated as is the way
Along the legal path

Across the road at number 13
The front lawn is mown regularly
And a new door affixed last week
The old one, also oak, broken up
Stored in the shed,
Ready, one day, to feed the fire-pit
Its red flame energy
To be faced one last time
Its ashes to be taken by the wind
To the wild north

To the wild north

The emptying
A peristalsis of sorrow
An unavoidable appointment
With life in its fulness
A compulsory education
One that Christ knew
Emptying Himself
Of all that got in the way
Of Him touching rotten flesh
Or healing the broken-hearted

Book Review: ‘The Gift’ by Edith Eger

Edith Eger is a survivor of Auschwitz. Taken there by the Nazis with her parents when she was 16, separated shortly after arriving at the death camp, her parents were murdered almost immediately.

The sub-title is: A Survivor’s Journey to Freedom

Her story is not only beyond heroic it carries authority; she knows what she is talking about. If anyone embodies the overworked phrase ‘lived experience’ she does.

The Gift was first published in 2020 when Edith was 92. Her previous book The Choice was published in 2017, so she hasn’t rushed to the printing press. The contents of The Gift are like a fine wine or whisky distilled and matured over many decades.

Hope is a matter of life and death

Using her own experience of escaping the mental trap of ‘victimhood’, she relates the stories of others facing suffering and various forms of PTSD and how her discoveries enable them to find freedom. She is a qualified psychologist and trained counsellor for PTSD sufferers.

Some quotes to whet the appetite:

‘My first night in Auschwitz, I was forced to dance for SS officer Josef Mengele, known as the Angel of Death…I stood on the concrete floor…frozen with fear…I closed my eyes and retreated to an inner world. In my mind, I was no longer imprisoned in a death camp, cold and hungry…I was on stage of a Budapest opera house, dancing the role of Juliet in Tchaikovsky’s ballet…’

The second chapter is titled: No Prozac at Auschwitz

‘Hope is a matter of life and death. I knew a young woman in Auschwitz who became certain the camp would be liberated by Christmas…but then Christmas came and went…the day after my friend was dead. Hope had kept her going. When her hope died, she did, too.’

‘The key to maintaining your freedom during a conflict is to hold your truth while also relinquishing the need for power and control’

There isn’t the space in a review to list all the people and their traumas that Edith uses to illustrate what she has discovered as the necessary ingredients to find true freedom, but, as she proposes: ‘Suffering is universal. But victimhood is optional.’

Is it a self-help book? Yes. Is it focussing on the ‘self’ and relying on human resources to overcome trauma? Largely, yes. Though, in a typically Jewish way, it is clear that Edith retains belief in God.

In the remarkable chapter ‘The Nazi in You’ where she explores our tendency to slip into judgement, she says: ‘Even a Nazi can be a messenger of God…this (Nazi guard) was my teacher, guiding me to the choice I always have to replace judgement with compassion…to practice love’

Did I agree with everything in the book? I’m not sure that is the right question

Did I agree with everything in the book? I’m not sure that is the right question. I defy anyone who reads this book not to come away with the impression that Edith has discovered real pearls of wisdom to be shared widely.

But, not to dodge the question. No. I’m not sure I would advocate asking someone to sit on top of you whilst you erupt into an apparently therapeutic primal scream as repeatable practice. But I feel as if I am nitpicking.

Is this an enjoyable read? O dear! If you found Ghandi, or The King’s Speech, or My Left Foot enjoyable, then yes, it is enjoyable. It’s not Mission Impossible or Jane Eyre type of enjoyable, but it is engaging, enriching, and a good book to refer to and keep on the bookshelf.

Slack Jaw at War

‘Ackney Slack Jaw
That’s my name
Not black no blame
I’m a white rhyming jackdaw
Not wild, not tame

Some rules in East
Don’t look at me in my eyes
Stay lowly, be cool as ice
Not hostile, I don’t smile
Safe with me, not deceased

No conformity, no truce

I flatten my vowels
Let my jaw hang loose
My I, so sly
My words so smooth
No conformity, no truce

I carry a grammar hammer
Your e’s and your a’s
Rebuilt in Slack Jaw ways
Your o’s and your u’s
No stranger to abuse

I carry a grammar hammer

I’m a white rhyming jackdaw
Not wild, not tame
Not black, no blame
‘Ackney Slack Jaw
That’s my name

Paris ’24 10,000m Twenty-Sixth and final installment 0 days to go…

Friday 2nd August

The aim: to try and match Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei’s 10,000m world record, 26:11, but running half the distance!

Opening Blog:

Final Post: in the well-worn tradition of leaving y’all hangin’ first some thank yous to all who have laughed along, cheered, liked and commented on Strava, and doubted (yes you did) and in particular to two pacers, an unnamed pacer on the Severn Bridge Parkrun a month ago and Paul Stuart who worked out a pace for each kilometre and kept me informed as we charged (?) down the Portway yesterday evening.

Some Anno Domini and physical impairments kept me busy: A&E and stitches after falling over and denting my forehead, Achilles heel pain, and various niggles + Covid all delayed progress from 29 minutes for 5K. But, for the past few months, injury free…

The graph shows my favoured early morning Harbourside 5K runs during the past year – the target pace was 5:14 mins per km.

Did I make it? No. I conked out yesterday evening, my final attempt!

This has been such an enjoyable ‘project’ for the past two years. Who knows, I might still get there one day (my PB to date 5:16s/km) but, with the Paris 10,000m Final due to start in 7 hours, I am happy to have removed my trainers, put the very sweaty running vest in the wash, and relaxed today watching the extraordinary athletes bang out 100m well under 10s, 1500m under 3:30, and 10,000m maybe close to 26:11?

Many thanks for reading my 26th and final Paris 2024 blog post.

Over and out.

Friday’s Irregular Poetry Corner: The Song of the Bow

I woke up this morning aware at some point that I didn’t have a poem to share for Friday’s Irregular Poetry Corner. That’s OK as it has always wanted to live up to its name – Irregular.

So, to my breakfast routine: Malted wheats + homemade muesli + cuppa tea, milk no sugar, and a bible reading. This morning’s reading was 2 Samuel chapter 1 which includes David’s lament, The Song of the Bow, a poem, a pouring out of grief over the death of King Saul and his son Jonathan in battle.

I offer selected verses from The Song of the Bow in the form of tercets. The phrase How the Mighty have Fallen is often attributed to Shakespeare or Churchill but borrowed, in fact, from David shortly before he became King David.

The battle has extraordinary resonance today. The Philistines, victorious in this battle with Israel in which their archers wounded Saul and Jonathan, occupied the same region we know today as the Gaza Strip: the ancient rivalry continues.

Maybe let this poem open our ears to hear the laments poured out by Jews and Gazans as the days of suffering continue nearly 10 months after the despicable attack against unarmed Jews by Hamas in October 2023 and the hostages taken.

The Song of the Bow

The beauty of Israel is slain on your high places
How the mighty have fallen
Tell it not in Gath

O mountains of Gilboa
Let there be no dew nor rain upon you
For the shield of the mighty is defiled

Saul and Jonathan were beloved and pleasant in their lives
And in their death they were not divided
They were swifter than eagles and stronger than lions

O daughters of Israel, weep over Saul
Who clothed you in scarlet with luxury
Who put ornaments of gold on your apparel

How the mighty have fallen in the midst of battle
I am distressed for you, my brother, Jonathan
Your love to me…surpassing the love of women

How the mighty have fallen
And the weapons of war
Perished!

In some unknown way, a lament can do what victory and/or defeat in battle cannot. There is an unseen limit to suffering, a Stop sign, and a lament is a prelude, I suggest, to the deep cry of Enough! uttered in the final seconds before peace reigns.

Paris ’24 10,000m update…4 days to go…Tuesday 29th July

Paris 2024 Olympics is underway, the Flying Cauldron is burning away in the Tuileries Garden, and Team GB has just won their first Gold in the team 3-Day Eventing – congratulations!

And, with four days to go before the 10,000m final, I have four days to try and match Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei’s world record, 26:11, but running half the distance!

Just after sunrise this morning I set off…and was sure I’d run 5K but Strava measured it as 4.91K. Even if I had run 9m further the time was still a tad slower - well, 40+ seconds slower – so there’s work to be done.

How many clichés can I dare to use? One.

It’s down to the wire.

Book Review: Jesus and the Powers, Tom Wright and Michael F. Bird (SPCK)

If the unenforceable pub ban on Sex, Politics, or Religion, as topics of conversation to ensure that tempers do not get too frayed, then clearly Wright and Bird are skating on thin ice in tackling two out of the three volatile subjects.

Tom Wright is well-known for an intellectual and theological approach to New Testament interpretation in its historical setting without somehow losing the common touch. It’s a skill he possesses and has brought once again to this book on Politics and Christianity.

In summary, he and Bird not only argue that for Christians to retreat from politics with either a small p or capital P is as much a terrible mistake as interpreting Christianity and the call of Christ entirely within the bounds of social reform and justice for all. I particularly like this sentence:

‘The gospel cannot be reduced to a this-world project of social betterment. But neither is the gospel an escapist drama for the soul pining for the angelic door of heaven’.

Is the book sufficiently punchy? Yes, ‘I’d say so. It’s not a ‘tome’ at 178 paperback pages. It’s more a collection of well-argued and sometimes entertaining articles stitched together culminating in defence of liberal democracy as the best, or maybe the ‘least worst’, form of government to date, better than the tyrannical reign of totalitarian regimes whether religious like the Taliban, or political like Communist, or fascist dictatorships, or kings and queens.

Is the book timely? Definitely. With Trump versus Harris, our recent electoral swing to Labour, and hotly contested social and political issues like gender fluidity, sexuality, cancel-culture, Israel and Gaza, Russia and Ukraine, China and Taiwan, and the worldwide trades in human trafficking and the millions on the move as refugees (almost exclusively away from totalitarian regimes to liberal democracies), this is a very timely book.

If you’ve never really stepped back as a Christian to consider issues of conscience, and where the limits of obedience to the state should lie, this is a great read. And the limits of fought-for civil liberties such as free speech, freedom of belief, association, and assembly, that we’re in danger of taking for granted, read on!

And, if you are not a Christian but find yourself living in a society shaped, at least historically, by biblical morality and the teaching of Jesus, this is a book for you, if only to consider in a fresh light how we have reached this point in our political evolution in 2024.

This is one of those Stop and Think books.

Is it light-hearted? No, but I did enjoy the authors’ brief foray into the mind and political thinking of JRR Tolkien and the Lord of The Rings and made a mental note to re-watch the DVD set when winter draws in!

This is one of those Stop and Think books

Only one thing irritated me. At first, I thought it was a typo, but as the error is repeated throughout the book, it must have been an editorial decision, an error of judgement maybe, but not a careless mistake. I’m referring to lowercase ‘h’ and ‘s’ when referring to the third member of the Trinity, the Holy Spirit. But I’ll leave that for you to judge!

I feel I haven’t done the content of the book justice, but to do so would add too many words. Best to beg, borrow, or buy a copy.

Paris ’24 10,000m update…7 days to go

Friday 26th July 2024

Later today the Opening Ceremony for the Paris 2024 Olympics will explode into life around the Eiffel Tower.

Excitement over the Olympics, held in Paris for the first time since 1924, is crackling away nicely. The previous Paris Games, a century ago, were made famous in 1981 by the film Chariots of Fire in which Eric Liddell, a Scottish Christian, runs for the glory of God and Harold Abrahams, an English Jew, runs to overcome prejudice…and, not to forget, Vangelis’s theme tune.

Et moi?

I’m not running my race for any lofty moral or spiritual goals, but to attempt to match the 10,000m world record time, 26.11, set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020 but over 5,000m by August 2nd, the day of the 10,000m final…seven days from now.

Progress?

Sadly recent attempts to bring my 5K time down have been thwarted. Yesterday I abandoned an attempt…mainly due to misjudging the direction of the wind! Doh! I was running into the wind not with it as planned. Today I woke up feeling decidedly odd with some labyrinthitis and have delayed a steady 5K run for a few hours.

But one doesn’t give up. I’m hoping the Olympian efforts of Team GB and others will inspire me over the final week to push, push, push. No pain no gain, eh?

One doesn’t give up…there are always hurdles to overcome

There are always hurdles to overcome. We’ve woken up to the breaking news that arsonists have targeted train lines in and out of Paris disrupting travel plans for 800,000 passengers on the move. As I write this there are no details, no one has taken responsibility, and the Opening Ceremony as planned will go ahead.

So…in the meantime, it’s Vive La France, much cheering for Team GB, and here’s hoping my earbuds don’t fall out listening to Vangelis whilst urging my two pins to go just a tad faster.

Jesus was cross…a strange place to find hope!

Despite all the political turmoil, scandals, coarseness, and the polarisation of recent years threatening to drown out all hope, I see hope.

In part, what gives me hope is the public reaction towards hypocrisy, double standards, false promises, and dishonesty whenever these moral failures come to light e.g. Boris Johnson and others who set the Lockdown rules only to break them, or the Post Office scandal, or antisemitism in a Labour party espousing non-racism, or the bullying of young athletes by coaches striving at all costs to meet success criteria.

In other words, as a culture and a nation, we haven’t completely lost sight of what is right and good even if our leaders cannot reproduce the qualities we long to see in the world in their own lives.

And if we dare to look closer to home – nor do we reproduce those standards. We are all tainted with a tendency towards imperfection.

In recent years, anger, disappointment, and frustration have built up towards our political and religious leaders, so it might be a good moment and instructive to stop and listen to Jesus’ red-hot verbal attack on the leaders of his day.

Matthew recorded many of Jesus’ verbal assaults in one chapter – chapter 23. Even as a child, I can remember the profound impact this chapter and others had in forming my moral compass. Sometimes my reaction was simple, more like a pantomime – booing the Pharisees and cheering Jesus – but, I would argue, something of inestimable value has been laid in the ‘Christian’ nations by being marinaded in the Scriptures over many centuries – despite our shocking failures to steer clear of moral failure.

At least we know from what heights we have fallen.

A sample:

‘The Pharisees sit in Moses’ seat, therefore do what they say but not what they do, for they say but do not do’

‘Woe to you, Pharisees, hypocrites! You shut up the kingdom of heaven against men; for you neither go in yourselves nor allow those who are entering to go in’

‘Blind Pharisee, first cleanse the inside of the cup, that the outside may be clean also…you are like whitewashed tombs which appear beautiful outwardly but inside are full of dead men’s bones and all uncleanness. Even so, you appear righteous but are full of hypocrisy and lawlessness’

How can there be hope if we are all flawed?

St Paul, a former Pharisee of course, and a target for Jesus’ criticisms, later spoke out in like manner after his conversion to Christ, and in doing so shed light on his former life as a committed Pharisee:

‘Men will…have a form of godliness but deny its power’ 2 Tim 3 v 1-5

And there, in one short verse, is the hope. Paul, formerly Saul who dragged Christians off to prison or stood by as they were, like Stephen, murdered and martyred, had discovered the secret of hope. He had abandoned the outward form of godliness in favour of the power of godliness.

What was this power that Paul had found? And can we? Can our culture find its way back from the hypocrisy of recent years? Can we as churches? Or as individuals? What was the ‘gospel’ (which simply means ‘good news’) of the kingdom that Jesus, the apostles, and Paul proclaimed?

Before we pursue the answer to those questions we need to take one step back.

Had we been alive in Jesus’ day we would have known that the ‘Pharisees-party’ was very popular, as were the Sadducees, their rivals.

Here’s a summary of their message:

1. Israel existed but only under Roman rule

2. Israel, due to her disobedience to the Law, had lost her sovereignty to the Romans

3. Therefore to earn God’s favour once again, and be restored to full sovereignty, complete obedience to the Law of Moses is required

4. In addition to the Law, traditions that ensured obedience to the Law must be observed

It’s an appealing message and offers hope: the hope of self-determination, the overthrow of Roman rule, and the recovery of Israel as a theocracy under the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.

Paul, and many others, were caught up in the religious-political zeal and joined the Pharisees who set about enforcing the Law of Moses with as much mercy as the present-day Taliban exhibit imposing Sharia Law on their communities. It’s comparable.

As a result of his conversion to Christ Paul had abandoned this approach.

‘But now the righteousness of God apart from the Law has been revealed’ Romans 3 v 21

Apart from the Law! Paul argues that the Law, although good in itself, cannot reproduce its goodness in us, and that ’goodness’, ‘godliness’, or ‘righteousness’ that was in Jesus is available to us, not by human effort, but faith.

‘..the righteousness of God is through faith in Jesus Christ to all’ 3 v 22

It’s the difference between watching a non-swimmer trying to stay afloat in water through effort and a swimmer believing the water will hold them up. It’s the difference between human effort and faith.

When Paul wrote to the Christians in Rome he declared his aim, his purpose:

‘We have received apostleship for the obedience of faith among all nations’ 1 v 5

Not obedience to man-made Pharisee-like efforts to obey the Law but the ‘obedience of faith’. A father stands at the bottom of a wall on which he has placed his 5-year-old son telling him to ‘jump and I’ll catch you’. If he trusts that his father will catch him, he’ll jump and it’ll be the obedience of faith.

So…back to the question What was this power that Paul had discovered?

‘I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ; it is the power of God for salvation for everyone’ Rom 1 v 16

Christianity is not an externally imposed set of rules and commandments and our attempt to live by them, good though they are. True Christianity is not a religious duty participating in outward forms e.g. taking communion, being baptised, lifting hands in worship, kneeling to pray, or helping our neighbours – all of these things we may do, once we have become Christians, but, attempting to reproduce this righteousness without the ‘power’, we fall headlong into the Pharisaical ‘holier than thou’ trap of establishing a self-righteousness.

Christianity is not an externally imposed set of rules and commandments

True Christianity is inward not outward. We need the power inside us, like the water we need to believe in the water to hold us up to become a swimmer, we need Christ Himself in us, not just his teaching, or Moses’ Law.

This is the ‘gospel’ the good news that is utterly surprising to so many of us in England surrounded by so many churches and immersed as we have been for centuries in Christian culture and tradition.

In the hours before Jesus’ arrest he spoke to the disciples about this remarkable future in front of them:

‘I will pray to the Father, and he will give you the Spirit of truth who dwells with you but will be in you…then you will know that I am in my Father, and you are in me and I am in you…if anyone loves me…my Father will love him and we will come and make our home with him’

John 14 v 16f

When I heard this, and particularly when I read this for myself, I was astonished; I had thought Christianity was a religion to be adhered to, a set of (good) commandments to follow, an external set of rules, and the teachings of Jesus to obey.

By the time I had reached my teens, I had serious doubts about the reliability of the New Testament, whether Jesus had existed, and, in particular the resurrection. This is not the place to tackle all those questions, but I did find convincing answers to these questions but that still left me with a decision.

I could see that if Christ – in fact, the Father, the Son, and the Spirit - could take up residence in me – then I could be changed from the inside out. But like the non-swimmer struggling to believe the water will hold him/her up, I struggled to come to that point of faith and to ‘take the plunge’, ‘the leap of faith’, or to be more accurate to the New Testament receive the gift of righteousness freely given

Eventually, I did take the plunge and receive the gift.

And that is my source of hope. Not only do I retain hope within a world beset with political and social ills, flaws, and failings, I have hope for myself and all who have stumbled across this secret, the secret that Paul discovered, and many millions of others have since the resurrection of Christ…that He isn’t far off in heaven demanding our obedience but living out His life in us and through us in this world.

I like Paul’s phrase ‘…to all who believe…’. It’s not just Paul’s, it’s the ‘note’ or the music throughout the New Testament.

I could see that if Christ – in fact, the Father, the Son, and the Spirit - could take up residence in me – then I could be changed from the inside out

I wasn’t sure whether to use the title Jesus was cross. The risk is that we think Jesus is cross with ‘me’. Nothing could be further from the truth. Think of Nicodemus the Pharisee who was too scared of his peers, so he came to Jesus at night. Jesus treated him with respect and welcomed him. Or what about St Paul, who had participated in violence and murder against believers? When Christ appeared to Paul on the road to Damascus, he said: ‘Why do you persecute me?’ He came to Paul to choose him to be an apostle to Europe. None of us are unloved.

Or, to counter the double negative: All of us are loved.

From its opening pages, the bible is full of this curious love in the face of our sin. When Adam and Eve sewed fig leaves to cover their sense of shame having failed by eating the forbidden fruit, God came to them – He didn’t remain offended and aloof - and provided for what they needed. He came with love.

When Jesus came, he was criticised by the Pharisees:

‘The Pharisees complained saying, ‘Why do you eat with…sinners?’ Jesus answered and said ‘Those who are well do not need a physician, only those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance.’ Luke 5v31,31

So, I have hope, the same hope of any doctor.

Diagnosis complete, we can move on to healing and wholeness, to forgiveness and being filled with God Himself, and therefore…hope.

POSTSCRIPT: Try saying these words as a prayer if you are serious about abandoning everything to follow Christ: ‘Heavenly Father, I abandon all my useless efforts to be righteous. Please forgive me for all my failures. I come to you now with my hands open to receive You and all you want to give me from this point on. Amen.

Guest poet: Harry Baker - Impossible

Impossible - by Harry Baker

𝓟𝓪𝓻𝓲𝓼 ’24 10,000𝓶 𝓾𝓹𝓭𝓪𝓽𝓮…18 𝓭𝓪𝔂𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓸

I’m feeling the pressure of the deadline…can this 66-year-old athlete (?) run 5000m in the world record time for 10,000m, 26.11, set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020 by August 2nd, 2024, the day of the 10,000m final in the Paris Olympics?

Hmm…this is not me. Hair colour is…inaccurate…and the terrain is hardly the Portway! Nonetheless, I feel there’s something here - a sense of purpose.

Not according to this morning’s efforts.

27:04 this morning for a 5K loop up and down the Portway.

Again, perfect running conditions: cool, very slight breeze, dry. But the legs?

Thoughts include cutting out alcohol, resisting the pull of the toaster, and overcoming the sports-junkie-couch (but not today, there’s some serious tv viewing with Men’s Final Wimbledon and England v Spain footy later).

Also, adding in 1500m runs on the gym treadmill to get legs and lungs used to running faster.

Two and a half weeks to go.

‘They that wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall run and not grow weary’

Yes, this is my prayer.

Thank You

Descending from Tryfan
In an early morning autumnal mist
Three nights of hill-bound
Body odour to prove our ordeal
The welcome end in sight
And my joy is eclipsed
By sudden uncalled-for
Patella pain

A decade passes
And I, unable to run
And reduced often to
Less than a child’s pace
A young man no longer young
Stoic I, sad at heart
But head held high
Push on with private prayers

After-dawn rituals continue
There’s cereal, toast, tea
Bible readings, and tie-tying
All with variable success
A pre-work regularity but
Interrupted on this day
By one unbidden word:

‘Run!’

A command from Beyond
Authoritative, inescapable
Unharsh, inaudible
More than a word

So, crippled I
Locate my battered trainers
Old from lack of use
And find a gravel path
And obey, for a quarter of a mile
Then a mile the next day
Half-marathons follow on
Patella pain consigned
To the past

I run now on new fuel
Offerings of thanksgiving
To the One
Who interrupted my prayers
And made me an
Implausible parable
On two legs:

Therefore strengthen the hands
That hang down
And the feeble knees
And make straight paths for your feet
So that what is lame
May not be dislocated
But rather be healed…
…let us run the race

Paris ’24 10,000m update

25 days to go…

This morning I set out with the intention to meet my target and break 26:11 for a 5K around Bristol Harbourside.

If you’ve been mad enough to follow this post over the past year or so you’ll know my aim: to run 5000m in the world record time for 10,000m, 26.11, set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020. And to do so by August 2nd 2024, the day of the 10,000m final in the Paris Olympics.

Weather conditions at 7a.m. were perfect: blue sky, no gales, and early enough not to have to dodge commuters walking, biking, or e-scootering to work.

Man, it was tough!

Arriving back at the car I pressed my Fitbit watch to stop, and once recovered, looked at the time 26 mins! However, closer inspection revealed that the time was 26:13 AND the route I took was 4.93K, 70m short of a true 5K.

So…not quite 5K…and not quite fast enough.

Just over three weeks to go. Kummon!

Back. Shower. Tea. Cereal. More tea.

Paris ’24 10,000m update

35 days to go…

If you’ve been mad enough to follow this post over the past year or so you’ll know my aim: to run 5000m in the world record time for 10,000m, 26.11, set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020. And to do so by August 2nd 2024, the day of the 10,000m final in the Paris Olympics.

Not only is this a physical challenge but it also carries a moral/technical dilemma. Look at the Strava time below – 1 second off the target time of 26:11.

I should be cock-a-hoop…but celebrations are tempered by the official Severn Bridge Parkrun time: 27:10.

Why the discrepancy?

1. On Parkruns it takes a few seconds to reach the start line unless you are one of the Jaguars that see a 5K as a sprint…but it doesn’t take a full minute!

2. Strava is ‘generous’ and so shows more favourable times. Bit like weighing yourself on uncalibrated scales that show ½ a stone lighter

3. The official distance needs to be re-checked

I suspect number 2 may be the most significant factor!

Back. Shower. Tea. Toast.

Last comment…I struggled to keep up with the 28’ pacer as much as he struggled to run slow enough to hit 28’. I am indebted to him as a target in his light blue Pacer vest some yards ahead before a late burst from me and a passing Thank you as I lolloped towards the finishing tunnel.

Back. Shower. Tea. Toast.

Still small voice

Beer beach. Almost July.
Even with the sun skulking
Behind lumpy grey clouds
And an onshore breeze
To cool the pebbles
It is warm enough

Warm enough to sit,
Read, remove a layer
And later, sandals on
Wander over to the beach café
For a flat white and a brie
And cranberry panini

 Lunch, and to listen
Until time itself disappears
And the world of thoughts
Recedes
And some aural centre
Draws you in

Not gravity, not to-do lists
Not worries, nor plans
Neither angels nor demons
Only the sound of the beach
Filling all, upholding all, as if
One can swim at any depth

Suspended inside sound:
Breaking waves crashing
Like thousands of crisps
Trodden underfoot
Forlorn seagulls crying
Searching for scraps

An irritating Pekinese angry
In its over-stretched skin
Hull grunts of a fishing smack
Hauled over the pebbles
And much silence, the silence
Of an uncrowded beach

Into which I hear
All I need to hear

Summer?

It’s a temporary fixture
Like one-summer ants
Accelerators down
Scampering around on
Sun-scorched paving slabs
All to collect a leaf,
And march triumphant

Before death,
Hoisting their green flags

It’s burning beach sand
Underfeet furnaces
Making flamenco dancers
Of even the most reserved
A staccato dancing
Desperate hunt for cool
Blades of green grass

Before the sand chills
So fast at the sunset hour

It’s inane music
Filling the void
No one permitted to dip,
Or speak of life in the raw,
Or grief-stricken hearts, but
We weep with those whose
Suntans are for next year

Before the sounds of
Our final goodbyes dissipate

It’s for removing shirts
Flouting flesh-covering rules
It’s beach cricket. Intense.
Annual family contests
Fiercely fought, bat and ball,
Battling like warring hippos,
Unto death…well, loss anyway

Before stumps are drawn
Chilled beers are sunk

And we carry one another
Across lengthening shadows

Paris Olympics 2024 – 43 days to the 10,000m final

My aim is to run the 10,000m world record time, 26.11 set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020 but over 5K by August 2nd, the day of the 10,000m final in the Paris Olympics.

Recent times:
April 19th 27.47
May 18th 27.35
June 15th 27.11

This morning Harbourside 5K…26:30

And I can tell you, that hurt!

Chuffed and puffed…but can I knock off 20 seconds to dip under Joshua Cheptogei’s 10K world record for a 5K by August 2nd the day of the 10,000m final in Paris???

Paris ’24 10,000m update

Bonjour! Signs of progress!

Over the past year, this blog post has not been littered with positive news. If you’ve read a few you’ll know that this 66-year-old athlete (?) periodically introduces you to yet more Anglo-Saxon and Latin-sounding injuries: Morton’s Neuroma, Plantar Fasciitis, Achilles tendonitis, a torn calf-muscle, and anno dominitis.

But to break the fug, the gloom, and the despondency, finally, there’s some sunnier news.

I’m going to give some credit to my osteopath who has altered the way I exercise before running and a good running club friend who has insisted I should stretch after running. If, just prior to a Parkrun, you come across a fella waggling each joint in different planes and lunging as if there’s no tomorrow…it could be me. Plus a warm-up run of a few hundred metres, ideally, before pressing my Fitbit 4 watch to start recording the run.

Two recent runs to report:

6th June, Cumberland Basin

It’s not much after 6 am and we’re off on a bright but chilly morning with a slight northerly breeze along the familiar Harbourside 5K route, past the rowing club, and on up to the cranes turning into the city centre, back to the harbour wall, returning to Hotwells, over the small bridge and turning Fitbit ‘Off’ just before reaching the car.

Result: 27.49 for 5.08km - approximately 27.22 for 5K

My aim is to run the 10,000m world record time, 26.11 set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020 but over 5000m

15th June, Severn Bridge Parkrun

Windscreen wipers working hard on the drive up the M5 and across the Severn Bridge tell their own story, and blustery winds charging up the Severn from the south are ready to make 200+ runners run at a 10-degree angle. The diagonal rain comes and goes. It’s all the way up the impressive motorway bridge and back down. I find it hard to gauge pace, and to decide whether I have enough puff to push on faster for the finish.

Result: 27:11 for 5.00km Fitbit watch - official time, however, was 28:06 - evidently it takes a while to cross the start line!

My aim is to run the 10,000m world record time, 26.11 set by Ugandan Joshua Cheptogei in 2020 but over 5000m by August 2nd, the day of the 10,000m final in the Paris Olympics.

Place your bets!

Juggling with water

In a dream as a child,
Creeping downstairs
In the dark, I sat
Composed, adjusting the
Ragged piano stool
And played Rachmaninov’s
2nd piano concerto in C minor
Faultlessly
Each finger and note
Plunging into an infinite pool
Of untrammelled light

It was so vivid
A copy of a reality
Evading this conscious realm
Early in the morning I followed
My dream to the same stool
But my fingers turned to butter
And the notes and chords
Evaporated never to return
Like a juggler whose sticks
Had turned to water
I sighed

And now? Years piled upon years?
Here I am. And there you are.
Do we prefer the dream world
Of realised hopes, like miracles
Grace-gifts from elsewhere?
Or,
Do we reconcile ourselves
To the world of cuts and bruises
Of hoped-for solidity
Slipping through our fingers
Like water into sand?

Jazz-jamming bum notes flow on,
Unashamed stepping stones

On the subject of water,
I stumbled across
An unlooked-for treasure
Tucked away in an ancient psalm
You keep my tears in a bottle
You have recorded each one
In Your book
Now? Now, with eyes closed
Jazz-jamming bum notes flow on,
Unashamed stepping stones
Sounding like spring rain